What I Cannot Change
I was reading Copper Pony’s Cowgirl’s blog and a song by LeAnn Rimes happened to be playing called “What I Cannot Change”. It brought tears to my eyes. Not looking for that reaction from you, but I think it’s a beautiful song. I hope you enjoy it.
If you liked the song, I’d suggest also reading LeAnn’s thoughts about letting go, forgiveness, and learning to love on her website.
It especially hit home what she says about “I will learn to let go of myself. Sometimes I hold back my emotions, too afraid of being hurt or judged…I have always felt like everyone I love will eventually leave me.”
It’s tough not believing this when the pattern keeps repeating. Makes me think I need to “change whatever I, whenever I can” to stop this pattern in my life.
Just need to figure out what that change is. Maybe it’s something about me or maybe it’s that I hook up with people who leave rather than put in the time, effort, and communication required to work out problems. Maybe it’s a little of both.
Heard KD lang’s “tall in the saddle” (or is it “pulling back the reins?”) and thought of you yesterday. Also a beautiful song. her voice is amazing too. Hang in there kid.
It’s “Pullin’ Back the Reins”. Yes, another great song. Thanks for the great party. Stories and laughter are good medicine.
Beautiful song and thoughts. As for figuring out “what that change is”, it’s always good to try to analyze your patterns but it’s not easy on you, I’m sure. My guess is that a lot depends on choosing the right person but I wouldn’t call myself an expert by any means.