I’ve written a lot in the past couple days, but stopped myself from posting what I wrote. I’ve been caught up in thoughts about things H said to me before he left, trying to figure out what they meant, and come to some sort of peace about it. A friend said to me today,…
How exciting! I saw the sun today! I am so happy!!! The day started out at 27 degrees and it was dark when I cleaned stalls and fed the horses. Java checked out the fresh mud. The sun was peeking out as I hung out the laundry. I tried to capture the steam coming off…
I found this video on YouTube. It’s been one of my favorite songs for many years, even though it makes me sad. Maybe I’ve always known in my heart that H wouldn’t stay with me forever. Maybe our worlds were just too far apart for me to hang on.
I’m a hug and kiss in the morning girl. I’m a spoon in bed smell his neck at night and know the world is okay kind of lady. I’m a sleep with my nose buried in his t-shirt for a month after he leaves kind of wife. I’m taking this one-gal-act offline for awhile. I…
Thanks for all your kind comments and thanks also to the people who have privately e-mailed me. I love how you see the positive things in me, and the reminders that I’m not alone in this. Java keeps trying to comfort me. She keeps pawing at me, laying her head in my lap, licking my…
“I saw H and his girlfriend at the barbecue.” “You’re married to H aren’t you? We came here from the C plant together.” “Didn’t I meet you at H’s class reunion several years ago? Sorry to hear you’re divorced.” (Gosh, I’m sorry to hear that too because we’re actually not divorced yet, although he already…
