grief

And the Tears Roll On

And the Tears Roll On

“I saw H and his girlfriend at the barbecue.” “You’re married to H aren’t you? We came here from the C plant together.” “Didn’t I meet you at H’s class reunion several years ago? Sorry to hear you’re divorced.” (Gosh, I’m sorry to hear that too because we’re actually not divorced yet, although he already…

Avoiding the Undertow

Avoiding the Undertow

Thursday night, after another tough day at work, I watched the season premier of Grey’s Anatomy that I had recorded a week ago. I sobbed through most of it. The episode was about how everyone was handling George’s recent death. Here is a synopsis of the closing dialogue (which was mostly people’s thoughts, not actual…

Looking for My Tribe

Looking for My Tribe

How can one day be so wonderful and the next so awful? I thought I’d try to put up the kennel myself. After all, who else was going to do it? I opened the box and found a lot of pieces. I looked at the instructions and saw a lot of steps. I finished steps…

Slowly

Slowly

It hasn’t made sense to me feeling so sad right now. Shouldn’t I feel better as time goes on? But I guess it kind of makes sense because I was so taken by surprise by this divorce, I think I’ve mainly been in a state of shock. Sad, depressed, angry, and humiliated, but all veiled…